Sunday...

November 15th, 2009...I know...I know...it is true though...there are some days that I have more to say than others...some days I am working on other projects not ready for post. The topic of today was "critical thinking" it's origin, etc...etc...and I must say it felt like a sermon this morning even though it wasn't discussed in church...maybe it was the day...the unseasonable weather. What an amazing day out...at the end of the day..."critical thinking" lost out to the beautiful weather...I mean...how can you ask all the right questions on such a day...every now and than you have to just enjoy the moment...

jwcIII

Saturday...

November 14th, 2009...sometimes it is just good to get away for a little bit...sometimes that is all you need to relax and reset...

jwcIII

Friday...

November 13th, 2009...a busy morning broke into a relaxing and playful evening of movies with Addy...I'm not even sure how many times we watched My Little Pony, but she was happy...and when she smiles...I smile...a proud father...some days I don't know much...every Dad should know the joy of playing Kings & Queens with their daughter...every Dad should have the revelation that I have experienced.

jwcIII

Thursday...

November 12th, 2009...and the rain continues...it use to be when I was a child a storm like this would sound the closing of schools and a hurricane or tropical storm party at my house with all of my family...food and games...but now...it signals risk and responsibility...we almost always lose trees when a storm like IDA comes up the coast...old trees...older than I...makes me think about life...what's important...time and how very little happens over night or day...but over time...stay dry...and if you can't...stay safe...

jwcIII

Wednesday...

November 11th, 2009...Veteran's Day...what can I say...about such a unique and solemn day...what can I say that has not been said time and time again...

...I remember many things about the Veteran's that have influenced my life...while each story they shared was unique...they all shared a common bond...their smile...a humbled awareness...

...from Sunday mornings with Walt talking about the Core...to hearing about Korea from my Uncle Jesse...to Mr. Cherry's stories of WWII and France...may your souls find the peace you search for...

...thank you for touching my life in so many ways...

jwcIII

Tuesday...

November 10th, 2009...Happy Birthday Moma!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday Mom...for 64 years you have lived an amazing life...to me you are many things...my mother...my friend...my confidant...my family...

You have guided me as a father...and for that I am forever grateful...

It is no secret that we have become so much closer since Dad's passing...but life...has come full circle...you are an inspiration to me...always have been...and on this...your 64th birthday...I want you to know that I love you...all that you are and all that you represent...you have always been a constant in my life...and for that I am thankful...may all of your dreams come true...forever indebted...

Love always...your son...

Joseph W. Carney III
"Joseph"

Monday...

November 9th, 2009...I woke to an alarm that would not stop going off...I mean really...the nerve of that little...noisy box...

...Strange dreams last night...woke with a kink in the left side of my neck...yikes...

...I just finished the "echo" revision of the COOP I've been working on with A.M. and I needed a brake from the monotony of the government document writing...

..."ALL IN!!!"...I've felt as though I was all in most of my life...but no more than the day my father died...since than I have learned a lot about myself...the good and the bad...but I must say is I realize that I too fear the unknown...but...it isn't always about winning or losing...most of the time it is about the experience...sometimes people aren't up to the challenge...but such is life...

hope y'all have a beautiful day...much to do...much to do...

jwcIII

Sunday...

November 8th, 2009...woke rested...a little congested...hmmm...dreams...wow...already dreaming about my trip to Baltimore...hmmm...with a twist...beautiful weather today...

...started the day with a few chores...then church...the sermon was about being "all in"...hmmm...I'll have to touch on that at a later date...after I ponder it a bit...

...breakfast at 3rd street was comical...I feel badly that I didn't have jumper cables...really I do...

...hospital...hmmm...ready for a change...time to move on with things...

...writing...when you are exhausted...is virtually impossible...hmmm...until tomorrow...

jwcIII

Saturday...

...November 7th, 2009...

What a day...hella productive...if there is a such a thing...one of those days where everything is clicking...mhmmm

Uncle Jim's wedding went well...little hard for my mom and her sisters, but it has been 6 years since Diane passed away...

Early night for this tired country boy...

jwcIII

Friday...

November 6th, 2009...started before the sun had risen...wiping the sleepers from my eyes...time to pack up for the weekend...busy...yet casual day at work...then headed to Smithfield to celebrate Mom's birthday...Uncle Jim's wedding tomorrow...sure to be a bit emotional...then back to the RIC for another busy week...

mhmm...what to do what to do...use to be the question...now it seems it is what not to do...limits are overrated...

I will say that I am on my toes...that is indisputable...

good day...

jwcIII

Thursday...

November 5th, 2009...picked up Addy...breakfast at McCleans...yummy...I love watching Addy...teaching her...learning from her...such a simple pleasure in life...everyone should be so lucky to experience the feelings and emotions that come with that...Dad's were guests for "donuts with dad's day" at her preschool...!!! Addy loved the chocolate donuts...i enjoyed the apples!!!

Such a great day...followed by a great run (although I need new running shoes) and a little work..."total productivity"...mhmm...

jwcIII

Wednesday...

November 4th, 2009...quarterly drill today...I woke rested...but I haven't been remembering my dreams that well at all...I love the coldness in the morning...don't get me wrong...I love the warmth of days...but there is something about how that Virignia cold bites at you...

Today I am happy to say that I believe in so much more...several years ago I lost a friend...and quite honestly it was completely my fault...today...it seems as though that time has healed our wounds...and that brings me some peace...something that has been hard to come by these last few years...

Fratres in armis...

jwcIII

Tuesday...

November 3rd, 2009...

I must say...I really wanted to vote today...but I am registered in Smithfield, VA and will not make it back...I really need a personal assistant to remind me of these things...frustrated...

I must say...I really like the feeling of cold air on your lungs...I was running the yesterday evening...it reminds me of a simpler time back home playing high school football...just for the fun of it...the night air...the sun setting...the whistles blowing...the coaches screaming...coaxing us to put out more and more...to push ourselves...I suppose you could say I found out a lot about myself back then...

I must say that inspiration is a great gift...in a world of quanitification I really believe it is just a beautiful moment...

jwcIII

Tuesday...

November 3rd, 2009...I woke from a dream...my body still...but my eyes searching...as if I wasn't sure if I was truly awake...

I had been dreaming about homecoming...and my brothers...

...the shower could not get hot enough to wash away the night...

...the sun overwhelmed my eyes...

Sometimes...news comes quickly...sometimes it is easier to just put it out there...as my best friend did yesterday...I had no words...I just wrapped my arms around her and hugged her...I am no stranger to breast cancer...the pain it caused my grandmother...my cousin...the tears and the fears were etched into my childhood...forever a part of my life...my heart is heavy and hopeful today...heavy and hopeful that this story will have a happy ending...for now I will support her as she supports her mother through this...this consuming process...this disease that has taken so many beautiful souls from this place...


Random House of Carney

I wear my heart on my sleeve...

This gets me into trouble...

but I wouldn't be the same person if I didn't...

I am baffled and enamoured...

I am lost and found...

I am at a crossroads...

more Random House of Carney

I believe sometimes...people push you away...because they are fearful of hurting you...and in the end...no matter what the outcome...both people lose out on learning about life...about communication...about relationships...I am as guilty as the next person...but still...

jwcIII

Monday...

November 2nd, 2009...I could not sleep for the life of me last night...by the time I fell asleep I was too exhausted to really remember my dreams which I really don't like...the weather this morning was overcast, but nice and cool...not cold...just nice and cool...

The morning has been productive...Executive Staff meeting always is interesting and eats up most of the day...made my last presentation before I go to Baltimore...should be a great trip...!!!

I will say...life is full of surprises...that come in all shapes and sizes...sometimes...you just have to enjoy them for what they are...not force life and flow...

jwcIII

Last Friday...

a good friend of mine...someone I would consider to have a kindred soul...asked me why Heather was so angry with me...and...I found myself uncomfortable answering it...but I knew the answer...we always said we would be honest with each other C...so...

She was so angry because I let the death of my father cloud my judgement to the point where I doubted her love for me...as a man...looking back...it is painful...as a man living in the future it is something I never want to experience again; however, as a man looking towards the near future I understand life so much better now than I did...was the price worth it...absolutely not...but I do...now have a gift that I will not take for granted...

I wanted to share this entry from E. Fox...November 1st, 2009...

Foresight and Hindsight...

When you have to make a decision or take a certain action, all that you can do is to do the best you know at that time, and if you do that you will have done your duty. In the light of after events it may turn out that you made a mistake, but that will not be your fault because you could not possibly do better than the best you know at the time. Claim that the Christ is guiding you; believe it, and the ultimate outcome will be favorable even if things seem to go wrong for a time.

And the Lord shall guide thee continually...(Isaiah 58:11)

On this day...All Saint's Day...I am thankful for my faith...that it has healed and I pray for those who have lost their way...may they find peace upon the road they travel...

jwcIII

Sunday...

November 1st, 2009...I woke today to pouring rain...fitting weather for the morning...rested with the extra hour of falling back...I showered and shaved and off to church I went to honor the memory of my beloved father...it has been 3 1/2 years since we last spoke, but I think of you often...it was a unique service, but I enjoyed it and the fellowship I shared...

"for of all the souls that have touched my life, none have burned brighter into mine than yours" jwcIII 11/01/09

May all of you remember all of those who have touched your lives in a special way...

jwcIII

Saturday...

October 31st, 2009...I hope everyone had as great a day as we did...while the beautiful weather did not hold out...Addy and I had a great time trick-or-treating...she was Belle of Beauty and the Beast...she was suppose to be Minnie Mouse, but much like her father made change in costume the day before...

jwcIII