Tuesday...

November 3rd, 2009...I woke from a dream...my body still...but my eyes searching...as if I wasn't sure if I was truly awake...

I had been dreaming about homecoming...and my brothers...

...the shower could not get hot enough to wash away the night...

...the sun overwhelmed my eyes...

Sometimes...news comes quickly...sometimes it is easier to just put it out there...as my best friend did yesterday...I had no words...I just wrapped my arms around her and hugged her...I am no stranger to breast cancer...the pain it caused my grandmother...my cousin...the tears and the fears were etched into my childhood...forever a part of my life...my heart is heavy and hopeful today...heavy and hopeful that this story will have a happy ending...for now I will support her as she supports her mother through this...this consuming process...this disease that has taken so many beautiful souls from this place...


Random House of Carney

I wear my heart on my sleeve...

This gets me into trouble...

but I wouldn't be the same person if I didn't...

I am baffled and enamoured...

I am lost and found...

I am at a crossroads...

more Random House of Carney

I believe sometimes...people push you away...because they are fearful of hurting you...and in the end...no matter what the outcome...both people lose out on learning about life...about communication...about relationships...I am as guilty as the next person...but still...

jwcIII